Yea, you probably knew that this is a blog...
So it's been a long rough ride, battling with myself as my last high school semester came and passed. I know graduation's supposed to be the best day of my life, but...I felt everything but happiness that night. Reminiscing of my best and worst experiences in the last four years, I cry myself to sleep nearly everyday since June.
Letting go is something I've always had trouble about. And sometimes it truly damages me deeply. Generally I tend to get too emotional dealing with problems so I try avoiding them all together. For me, simply avoiding conflicts is the way to avoid getting hurt. What happened in my last battle IRL has decimated me emotionally, and at times my mind feels numb trying t…
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(names and some events have been altered for sake of privacy)
Only recently have I learned the true and beautiful inspiration behind John Cage's 4'33":
It was late at night. My friends and I were exhausted coming back to school from an orchestra festival, and we just finished unloading the truck. All of the instruments were finally placed back on their respective racks, the drumline truck was loaded, and we were ready to go and enjoy a wonderful weekend.
While everyone was making small talk outside the bandroom saying their last goodbyes, I stared at the empty track and field right behind the fence. I couldn't even see the other side. It was obscured by the darkness, only slightly illuminated by the moonlight hidden behind the clouds. Alt…Read more >
OH MAN, I had a ton of internet connection problems today, but it looks like I made it. After failing at 286 (or 236 after failing 222) last time, I never thought I was going to make it again XD. I was almost the third to reach this milestone after Lefty8899! And it was gone, all the way back at one. The first time I stared at my edit counter having it show 1/365 really hurt. Really? All due to the fact that UTC time did not sync up with PST time. I edited every day here, but it didn't register in the system.
I never was actually determined to get the platinum badge again after that. Right after I was happy enough with the Divine 200-day badge. That badge looked pretty cool already. However, during spring break, I realized tha…Read more >
Well, it's been a while since a peaceful 10K edits. And I'm glad that it could be my 90K! My 90,000th edit is hidden somewhere on my edits in Apricot Alley. 10K more to the big one :) Thanks for encouraging me to stay guys.Read more >
Primetime here has made another 10K edits since the last blog post. :) I know the number of edits a user makes is pretty small compared to how you behave on the wiki, and what your net contributions are XD. But I still take this as a personal growth and milestone for me, just like when I got 1000 edits!
I would like to especially thank a few people for helping me get this far:
- for helping me to become more confident on the wiki and in real life.
- for supporting me in my pursuits and dreams.
- for helping me with my homework XD
- for those random moments over Skype.
- for being my true best friend.
- for being the only light I had on this wiki when times are dismal.
- for chatting about random things on SSDW.
- for rel…